when every thing doesnt goes well...

Damn shit! It so rude right  when u start a blog with 'nice' words? hehe... Well, i juz dunno how to express my feeling right now. What I know, I feel really dump right now.. A lot of stuff and works need to settle lately. When every thing doesnt goes as u plan, seriously it soooo shit!

Seriously, I wanna a life now!! I missed a lot great event this year. it all because to much focusing on works n job task. the event that i really regret was my boyfriend sis wedding. am so regret about it... i want to go to the wedding damn so much.. but i can't avoid my job. so many commitment lately...

every morning i wake up, than get ready for work. come home before 12, my body already tired. when my body already tired, i will sleep early... thats my rutin, almost every day... and i'm tired of it...

with all of this stuff, it make me asked my self back "what i really want in this life?" i already knew the answer but... yup, 'mencari redha Allah'. that what people will say to u.. (if u ask the good person la..) so, it make me thing 'what the purpose you live in this world?'(apa tujuan kamu hidup didunia ini?)

     'Bila kita tahu tujuan hidup kita mencari redha Allah maka kita akan bebas dari penghargaan manusia dan ini hidup yang paling tenang' - Prof Dr Muhaya

I think i should reset my mind set right now. Audit myself back. always keeping up with good attitude and try to throw any 'sifat mazmumah' in myself... so, i can get ready to be good daughter, girlfriend, friend, worker, boss, wife, mother....

**** May Allah bless all of us**** 

Still writing

Ok, dh lama sgt rasanya ak x update blog ni. hehe... al-maklum la busy.... (ayat x leh blah!) yela, keje skrg x sama dgn keje dulu walaupun masih dlm industri yg sama... huhu but i like to be in this busy situation. at least, I can learn new thing. 

sebenarnya ak dh xtaw nk merapu apa dlm blog nh. hehe... I'm happy with my life right now. Syukur, Alhamdulillah.I hope I can maintain this happiness until forever. (still not happy at all actually. problems keep chasing you until you meet the God. But, in overall, I can say I'm happy). eh, apa yg ak melalut nh? what ever lah... bkn ada org sgt nk baca blog ak nh... maklum la, x femes pn... hahaha

my current job are fine. My darling also great. I never meet a man who make me so flatted like he did. He always make me want to fall in love with him again and again and again. Thanks Allah!

My new target right now is to buy a house!!! I;m tired sharing a small space with others. Not much privacy at all. huhu... Start keep money from now.

BTW, I missed so much my bff. huhu... rindunya nk duduk sama2 mcm dlu.... bercerita smbil kongsi mslh,baju, make up, f&b n etc... (nsb bek x kongsi boyfriend. haha...) life must go on. everybody already have their own path. just wish all of the the best.

Kanjō no hyōgen

Hurmmm Its been almost a year, ak x update blog nh... smpi ak dh practikal, dh keje, dh konvo, n dh tukar tmpt keje... ngeee :D sejak masuk alam pekerjaan nh, dh xde mood sgt nk tulis blog.. mayb sbb bz kot... x pun dh letih sgt lps lik keje, kpla otak trus pk nk tdo je.... hehe... well, I kn sleeping beauty.. hehe...

klu dlu, ak selalu dengar org ckp "makin tinggi kita berada, makin ramai yg cuba jatuhkn kita". mula2 ak 50-50 nk trust ayat tu tp bila ak msuk alam keje, n i faced it. now, i really believe it... bkn sng utk kita naik ke tingkat yg paling atas. bnyak halangan yg perlu dilalui.. kdg2 ak hampir tertewas dlm perjuangan hidup. Alhamdulillah, berkat doa kedua org tuaku, ak mampu harunginya...

Ya, ak akui ada masanya ak lemah dlm menghadapi ujian idup. tp cara ak senang je... :D ak bukan seorg yg melawan ckp, sesungguhnya ak x pndi nk berlawan ckp. setgh org klu x puas hati, diorg akn cakap. but i'm not that person. My style, ak xkn lawan ckp sepatah pun but my action will speak for me. I'm using "action speak louder than words". perletakan jawatanku baru2 nh pn sbgi tnda protes ku kpda cmpny n now, i'm work with their competitor.... well, klu dh org len nk offer bnda bagus, for what i'm working at there?? hurmm nobody in the company knew the true reason i left them... let live the question with no answer.... (am i mean? whatever...) kdg2 tu ada gak soalan2 nakal yg bermain dlm minda nh...

"ko x takut kantoi dgn ex majikan yg ko keje kt tmpt nh?"

"mcm mn klu tembelang ko pecah?"

tp bila dipikirkn balik, ak perlu hadapi semua nh if it happen... i just need to prepare with strong reason. hope luck always be with me... huhu... cross the fingers...

otherwise, i'm young person with full of ambition in heart. i'll make my dreams come true...
ak jgak seorg yg sentiasakn nk pembaharuan.. its really tired when the end of the day, u keep doing the same thing untill no improvement...

actually, apa yg ak cuba celotehkn nh? hehe.... well, hanya sekadar luahan perasaan yg dh lma terpendam.. huhu.... whatever it is, the thing that still make me happy until now are my relationship n my friendship. I love my hubby so much and i love all my best friend too... Minna, duomo arigatou...

CUN selalu.....!

Aku Suka Bila Kau Ketawa
Kau Buat Aku Senyum Ke Telinga

Aku Suka Bila Kau Tersipu
Merah Muka Hendak Sembunyi Malu

Aku Disini Dengan Kamu
Kalau Boleh Biar Selalu
Kerna Kau Kini Ada Dalam Hatiku

Hanya Kau & Aku Sentiasa
Pedulikan Apa Orang Kata
Kita Berdua Sama Saja
Hanya Ingin Cari Bahagia
Aku Jumpa Waktu Kita Bersama

Buangkan Tisu Basah Airmata
Pimpin Tanganku Untuk Selamanya

Jangan Biarkan Hati Kamu Resah
Kasih Aku Temu Percayalah

Hanya Kau & Aku Sentiasa
Pedulikan Apa Orang Kata

Kau Dalam Diri Ku Selalu }
Engkaulah Yang Aku Mahu } 2x

Hanya Ingin Bersamamu… } 4x
Hanya Ingin Bersama Kamu….

Hope this is the end...

Kunbachiwa...!!!

sebenarnya dh lma ak nk tulis psl post nh tp dsebabkn blog ak jd haru biru sblum nh, t'tangguh kjap. hehe.... yela.. ak nh bkn pndi sgt bab2 nk hias blog nh sbb sblum nh pun my twin yg tlg buatkn, hikhik... thnk you very many to my twin cz tlg alter balik. =D

ok, skrg back to the story. My last semester juz finish in few days ago. I hope this will be my last semester that study officially in UNISEL. huhu... I had went through a lot of things in my life since i study in UNISEL. sedih jgak rsanya nk tngglkn alam pembelajaran nh. but life must go on. skrg ak akan masuk ke alam pekerjaan. sebelum nh ak hnya b'krja scra unofficial dgn family ak. now, scra rasminya ak akan digelar seorg pekerja, bkn pelajar lagi. huhu...

sepanjang ak berada di UNISEL, bnyk pengalaman pahit & manis ak telah lalui. ak kutip ia utk dijadikan pedoman dlm hidupku. yg buruk usah dikenang tp yg indah dijadikan kenangan yg tersimpul rapi dlm kamus hidupku.

semester 1, ini bkn pertama kali ak b'jauhan dgn family kerna ak seorg pelajar asrama SMK Sultan Badlishah (proud of this school). jd x ada kejanggalan sgt didlm diriku ini. antara moment yg paling indah dlm idupku ketika ini, perkenalanku dgn my twin aka roomate ak. hehe... it fun living with her. we got same connection. hehe...

the twin

well, bnyk lg things happen in my life during 1 sem. being a security in Merdeka Music Fiesta aka battle of the band aka gig haram (che an yg kta). get to noe with lil bro Hazwan n Muadz. riding horse at UNISEL Street 1. being friends with jamal, hasif, yana, zam, intan, tuti, lai, nad n etc. wat keje gile dgn anwari n ain. (apa keje gile tu, only 3 of us je yg taw. hehe...)

msuk 2nd sem, the unforgettable moment in my life, celebrate birthday asif kt sunway smbil men skirting. haha... pdn muka ko asip, ari tu ko kna kaw2 dgn kteorg. ari tu jgak 1st time ak men ice skirting. jd cewi sat. hehe...

hanya tinggal kenangan

ms kt skolah dlu, dh bnyk kali ak emcee utk majlis2 skolah. tp sjak msuk u, ak x prnh ada peluang. sehinggalah group ak diberi kesempatan utk conduct jmauan mesra lebaran 2008, ak x lepaskn peluang utk jd emcee skali lg. tp syg, time ak kna emcee, ak kena serangan batuk n sakit tekak. hukhuk... x psl2 suara ak rock time tu =( nsb bek ada hakeem, partner ak, menyelamatkn keadaan. apa yg bestnya ak dpt pujian dr para pensyarah. ahaks! bangga sekjp =D

tema: kaler ijao =D

klu nk disenaraikan bilangan event yg ak involve ms kt unisel mmg bnyk. So You Think You Can Dance & Sing, UNISEL Street 2, Acara bubur lambuk, sukan fakulti, dinner tahunan fakulti 2008 & 2009. ak join bkn sbgi peserta but as committee members @ ajk majlis. tp dlm bnyk2 majlis/event, event yg x dpt kulupakan adlh dinner FOB kt PJ Hilton. bnyk keringat ku telah kluar utk event t'sbut & bnyk bnda ak pelajari smsa dlm proses utk m'jayaknnya. mmg agak perit pada permulaanya. dgn mslh kewangan, pihak sponsor yg bnyk kerenah, p'maianan politik oleh para ajk. tp apabila berakhir sja dinner t'sbut, ak mampu utk t'senyum dgn bangga. bnyk pujian yg kami perolehi dr pelbagai pihak. ak x serik utk handle dinner mcm tu lg cuma jgn wat last minute aje la.. ;)

mlm Jalinan Korporat FOB, Hilton PJ

tp apabila memasuki tahun 2010, ak mula x aktif dlm persatuan. ak cuma mengikuti perkembangan mereka dr belakang.

walau apa pun yg, berlaku, ak tetap m'punyai kenangan tersendiri di alam universiti ku. terima kasih kpd yg hadir dlm idupku & mewarnainya dgn pelbagai warna & corak. ain, tuti, nadra, zam, yati hussain, yana, intan, ila, yati shuib, pian, riki, jamal, asif, opie, sheera, joyah, meera, siti, nadia, ijan, qimy, abg nik, pali, ady, adib, hatimi, shima, lya, fieza, intan, puspa, kek, saf, azie & ramai lg yg x mampu utk ak mengingati. kalian tetap wujud dlm kamus idupku sbgi seorg mahasiswa UNISEL.

1. Nickname kamu yang kawan-kawan selalu gunakan.. ?

klu zmn skolah rendah ANA, mmbr kwsn kejiranan ak pnggl NA, sedara mara ak kt Pendang pnggl NANA, mmbr2 badlishah pnggl FARHANA HIZAMI @ FANA ZAMI, tp plng feymes ANA la... hikhik..

2. Orang-Orang penting selain dari Ahli Keluarga kamu..?

setelah dicampur tolak darab bahagi, siap dgn standard deviation suma, maka, jwpnnya adalah...

jeng! jeng! jeng!

1. Mohd Shalihien bin Rofie
2. Nor'ain Asnida bt Ain
3. Siti Rohana bt Mohd Rozhi
4. Anwari Shafiq bin Hashim
5. Siti Nur Fadzilla bt Jamaluddin

3. Tiga (3) benda yang paling kamu idamkan Tika ini..?

Tiga je? xleh lebih ke? hehehe... no.1, saya nk ipad @ iphone4. no.2, nk keta!!!! hurmm Honda Civic pn jd la.. x pun Mazda 2 ke, Toyota Altis yg latest tu ke... paling koman pn Nissan Skyline pn boleh la... =D no.3, sy nk umah sy sndri... hikhik...

4. Penampilan kamu..?

I am easy goin person but i love fashion... i can wear any types of clothes selagi sesuai dgn agamaku.. ;)

5. Makanan yang langsung kamu tak boleh tinggalkan..?

Laksa mak ak & somtam.... die hard fans of thai food =D

6. Tiga (3) benda yang paling kamu sayang..?

handphone ku (1st time beli guna duit sndri), my lappy n teddy bearku; Mr Huggie...

7. Tiga (3) benda yang paling kamu Benci..?

benda yg paling ak benci? hurmmm apa erk? hantu? ak nh penakot skit... hehe... pancat & lintah... wlaupun ak m'besar di sawah bendang, ak tetap x ske dgn binatang tu! eeeeeeeiiiwwwwww....

8. Haiwan apa yg kamu teringin sgt nk bela..?

Aku nk bela kucing tp ak tkut kucing tu mati lg... hukhuk... klu x dpt kucing, arnab pn ok gak.. ayam serama ke... burung yg kiut2 ke... tupai kaler putih pn nmpk mcm cool gak... hikhik...

9. Kamu sangat sukakan suasana yang bagaimana..?? Sepi? Meriah?

ak suka kn suasana desa mcm kt kg ku kt Pendang... tp ak suka pantai...rs tenang je... ak ske pegi tmpt2 tnggi tp ak benci jln yg bengkang bengkok.. huhu..

10. Lima perkara yang kamu nk perkatakan..?

1. sy syg family sy .
2. sy syg kwn2 sy
3. sy sgt syg kekasih sy
4. sy sygkn agama sy, agama Islam
5. dan sy seorg yg patriotik. jd jgn cuba nk main2 psl sej dgn sy. sy ank jati kedah... ceq org Melayu keturunan Siam bkn Thai...

***** cilok dr mislilo... hehe.. =D

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Ku dapat rasa kehadiranmu

Walau hanya di dalam kalbu

Ku merindumu selalu

Pelik juga tapi ku pun rasa

Bagai kau berdiri disisiku

Terkenangkan waktu ketika

Berdampingan bersama-sama

Setiap pertemuan

Pasti akan temu detik perpisahan

Walau kini terpisah

Kenangkanlah saat indah

Sebagai penyembuh rindu

Kita tak ditakdirkan bersama

Untuk masa yang lebih lama

Biarpun hanya seketika

Kehadiranmu dirasa..rasa

Setiap pertemuaan

Pasti akan temu detik perpisahan

Walau kini terpisah

Kenangkanlah saat indah sebagai penyembuh rindu

Kenangkanlah saat indah sebagai penyembuh rindu

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sebenarnya ak sgt rindukn hubby ku (should i intoduce him? x pyh kot cz dh ada post psl dia sblm nh)... dh lma ak x b'jumpa dgn dia... really miss him damn much. ak akui akn kesibukan diriku dgn project paper ku... huhu... project paper juz like a nightmare to me. theres no other scariest rather than doing project paper.. haha... thnx to him coz always support me in every condition. i really appreciate ur understanding. abg, sory i can't wrote u as my bf in the dedication, permintaan dr pihak faculty. dedication yg i tulis tu, i put in my project paper. one more thing, i will support u in what u r doing juz like u support me in my life. u always comfort me when i'm in pressure n stress. Aishiteru kara...